New Leaf

This is a song I wrote/composed/produced/sang back in 2008, but I decided I should start keeping these things on my blog too.

The whole song can be found on ReverbNation:

Lisa Patric – New Leaf

New Leaf

Like anyone I have my limits 
the cracks were hard to hide 
broken heart, battered mind 
from the violence and lies 
When the rubble cleared away 
I was barely alive 

If you leave things lie 
They’ll never change 
start anew 
or stay the same 
broken hearts 
don’t fix themselves 
past is past 
and it’s just as well 
Don’t dwell on things 
You can’t get back 
it’s not worth living in the past 
Shed your skin, start anew 
and always be true to you

Wondering how I let it happen 
Knowing what I know 
I had the power deep inside me 
to let those demons go 
Now I’ve found the way back home 
and god I’ve missed it so

Demons can only be cleansed with light 
let it in, regain your sight 
don’t let grudges carry you 
not worth the pain they put you through 
move on to a better plane 
leave the anger, leave the blame 
cry if you must, but then move on 
the future is now, past is gone

Copyright Lisa Patric 2018

Fifty Years of Pride

I am working on a painting currently that is so much more than simply a painting. A friend approached me and asked if I could paint an album cover for him, and I excitedly said yes.

Once he told me what he wanted and what it was for I got even more excited. He’s putting together an album of queer-positive punk music from his younger years, and wanted to get it out and available before Pride Month is over, as a commemorative to Stonewall.

Fifty years later, the battles are (at least for some) slightly less, but there is still a long, long way to go. Nobody should ever decide who you should love, and it’s far overdue for everyone to understand this. I, for one, am proud to be a part of something like this. Pictures and links to the album to come later.


I’m beginning to feel like I’m finally getting somewhere with this “art” thing.  I am learning a lot with the projects I’ve been working on, and I am almost feeling brave enough to step up my game and leave the dolls behind and just sculpt.  Using dolls as a base to make something is cool, but I’m already feeling the limits using an existing shape to work with.  I have three more to finish, and then I get to see if I am really capable of building from the ground up.

I’m realizing that I also need to focus more on my writing, my book is nearly at the halfway point so I can’t just abandon it.  At the same time, music is calling.  I need to make time to schedule all this stuff in to really make myself happy, all in the hours outside of a day job.  Lately I feel like my brain is going to explode because in the hours I’m doing the day job, all I think about is going home and making things, then I get home and I have to push myself to get things done because I’m mentally exhausted from work. I guess that’s more motivation to try and build this into less of a part time gig.  For now, it’s off to work as usual, and facing a 1 day weekend.

If only the odds of winning the lottery were higher!


Freedom, Sweet Freedom!

There is something to be said for patience and resilience.  The last year of working until 11:30 has not been a lot of fun, and there was a time it was necessary, but that is not the case now.  My boyfriend got day shift over a month ago, and I’ve been biding my time until shift bid came around.  This time my rank was high enough I got days, and honestly it could not come soon enough.

I am the kind of person who is at their creative best in the evening, and for the last year I’ve spent those hours at a desk doing tech support.  Tuesday, day shift begins, which means that after 6:00 pm, I will be free to do whatever I want.  This means more writing, it means making music again, and it means creating lots of neat stuff.  I have been feeling creatively snuffed out, having my only truly useful hours of the day being before work –

this means if I started on a project I’d have to preemptively stop before I finished what I was doing or risk being late – and with sculpture and things related to it, it’s time sensitive stuff.  Can’t leave something half made, because it will be ruined before I can finish it.  Can’t leave polymer (when applicable) unbaked sitting on a table for 9+ hours.

So now, the journey begins.  I will likely be using WordPress for my store, simply because I am already on here and it’s a bit more practical for a beginner like myself.  It also means I have to start keeping receipts for supplies purchased, I have to open a business account pretty soon, and I will need to start settling on a store design.

Yikes. I’m really doing this.