Like a Timex, or a Nokia Cell Phone (the old school ones you can prop up a table with)

I’m still alive.

Feels like I wouldn’t be if the universe had its way the last few weeks, though.  It started with a pretty hard concussion to the head – mostly because I am a massive klutz.  I pushed on through, because I am too stubborn to say “you know, this might be a concussion?”

It went something like this:
Head meet door jamb.  Oh, hai door jamb!  DOOR JAMB SMASH!  Lump on forehead.  Stars.  Ice pack.  My fellow klutzes know the feels.

Anyway, got myself past this and then by the end of the week before last I was noticing I had what seemed to be a spider bite on my back, near my shoulder.  Finally gave in a week later and went to the hospital, had a small seizure and passed out, and then found out post blood work it was not a bug bite, it was an abscessed cyst.  So yeah, roughly an hour later, face-down on a stretcher with a wound on my back.  They wanted to make sure it would heal so they gave me seven days of some extra strength antibiotics, which around five days in, made me so ill that I needed to stop them.  My back is healing, thanks to the assistance of my better half,  so it’s okay for me to stop the antibiotics.

I just want off this damned ride.
I feel like it’s been a two week stint on the Gravitron.
My back hurts, I want to puke, and the operator left days ago.



One Day at a Time!

So, for some time I’ve had a registered company and no time to build it because of everything from terrible hours at work to no money to build.  Both of these things are changing, my hours have been daytime hours for some time now – and I have slowly been building supplies for a while to get my business off the ground.

This week, I invested in a domain and website/store – need to get both of those designed soon because as it turns out, word of mouth is a really good tool for making sales.  Here I was thinking that the figurines I make might take some time to find buyers, instead I have had several commission requests.  First it was a couple of friends, now people who don’t even know me are showing interest.  I have to keep a day job of course, but it’s looking like I am going to have to possibly find part time work if I’m going to make a real go of this.

We shall see what happens when I finish the four I currently have on the table.  It looks like it might soon be five.


I’m beginning to feel like I’m finally getting somewhere with this “art” thing.  I am learning a lot with the projects I’ve been working on, and I am almost feeling brave enough to step up my game and leave the dolls behind and just sculpt.  Using dolls as a base to make something is cool, but I’m already feeling the limits using an existing shape to work with.  I have three more to finish, and then I get to see if I am really capable of building from the ground up.

I’m realizing that I also need to focus more on my writing, my book is nearly at the halfway point so I can’t just abandon it.  At the same time, music is calling.  I need to make time to schedule all this stuff in to really make myself happy, all in the hours outside of a day job.  Lately I feel like my brain is going to explode because in the hours I’m doing the day job, all I think about is going home and making things, then I get home and I have to push myself to get things done because I’m mentally exhausted from work. I guess that’s more motivation to try and build this into less of a part time gig.  For now, it’s off to work as usual, and facing a 1 day weekend.

If only the odds of winning the lottery were higher!


Netflix and Black Holes Theory

I feel like there aren’t enough hours in a day to accomplish what I would like to and also get to relax.  I’m beginning to realize that a lot of this time-thieving comes from binge-watching Netflix.   It’s a habit that will have to change so that I can spend those precious hours creating.

NOT to say that if something I really want to watch comes on, I won’t watch it – just that I will have to start doing this on my iPad instead, so I can also make things.  I’ve a few things in mind I want to start on ASAP including finishing the unicorn doll I started a while ago, and several sculpture projects – as well as some hair accessories and other little goodies.

For now, off to work I go, undercaffeinated as hell.


Light at the End

Been going to the gym daily this week, went three days last week, and I’m down 10 lbs (huzzah!)

I’ve no illusions of being lean and athletic, but I definitely want to get in a lot better shape and feel better (this part is already happening). I’d be happy with having a lot more clothing options to be honest.

It’s improved my overall mood and made me feel like there is a reason I get up so early. In fact, this morning I only hit snooze once!

No Zombies Here.

My body has not been terribly cooperative the last while about switching to days.  I have to force myself to bed, and then I just lay there flipping from side to side until the sandman finally pays me a visit.  After two days off, you would think it would be worse than it was during the week.  Apparently, something saw fit to conk me out with a figurative mallet and I was able to be sound asleep before 10:30 (I was falling asleep on the couch at 9:00 pm).

I woke up this morning feeling rested and mentally alert for the first time in a long time. It’s a nice feeling, especially since I’m about to go to the gym and do a full workout.  I didn’t even balk at getting out of bed, and that’s usually a thing.  I have to say that going to the gym is probably contributing to the forced change in schedule, after all, what better way to get yourself to settle down early than to start the day with a workout?

The gym, I go to for multiple purposes.  I want to lose weight, for one.  I also want to be just generally healthier, take up some active hobbies maybe.  I’ve been exploring poi for some time now, and would like to eventually learn fire poi.  Mostly, I just want to feel good in my clothes.  It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to say I have, and I know it’s up to me to work at that.

It’s nice starting the day awake, though!


Three, Two, One, and… Go

Today I finally get my studio space set up the way I want to.  We have had the space to do this for some time, but we have not had the time for me to go up and organize my piles of art supplies I have now filled a dresser with.

This means I will now have a stationary place to go and create, and that I can walk away and not leave a giant mess in my living space (this keeps me from doing a lot of things, honestly).  I can set up my iPad and watch….okay, listen to Netflix while I sculpt, draw and paint.  It means I can finally start building up stock (I even have a baker’s shelf for that!) and have some things to sell on my store.

Most importantly, it means I can start making the ideas I have instead of thinking about how awesome they would be.  I can start making custom clothing for myself again as well, as this is my sewing space too.  This is a good weekend.